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These last 2 weeks i've learnt and realised so much. Sometimes something tragic has to happen for you to actually get a grip with everything and realise that there's so much more to life than school, work, friends etc. talking to someone a few days ago made me think about pretty much everything. Funny how i knew that my 'advice' was absolutely hopeless because with every word that i said, i would realise how pointless i sounded. so i guess i agree with you now? everything which you said i agree. all of it.

• yesterday i was told, "it really does not matter if you don't attend a celebration because one person won't make a great difference to a cheering crowd, but at times when unhappiness and distress are involved, just that one person could make a change to someones life". And i agree, although my translation from Iranian to English may not be completely accurate. It's weird how at times like this, the people who i never thought would care are the ones who have stuck by me. And the ones i've always thought would be there, weren't.... except for one. But i'm grateful for the one person who i've known basically all my life. We've both met so many people since our childhood days of playing in the garden and going to the park, yet in the end she's the one who's been there for me all the time. Even though we barely saw each other for a few years.

• i know there's nothing i can do, but every time i remember you it just brings a flood of emotions. it's put everything into perspective for me. But i think i just won't think about it this time and just deal with it when it comes, it's easier that way.

• i know i've been a really shit friend to you for this past few weeks but it's because i have so much going on that sometimes that little bit of effort that i need to make, seems impossible. i hope i haven't been a total dick.